Monday, December 31, 2012

Sunday, December 30, 2012

The Night is Ours

The cool November wind breezed against my skin.
I walked nervously towards you, my breathing thinned.
My heartbeat grew faster, my steps slowly faltered.
My world was spinning, I wished time could be altered.

Your lips formed to a smile, pearly whites exposed.
I don't know if I smiled, I think my lips were closed.
We exchanged our words, I could feel warmth creeping in.
My interest grew, I hope I was not obviously keen.

We ate our dinner, I watched  your eyes.
I was captivated, they were cold as ice.
I watched your mouth formed stories through words,
Intelligence exude as sharp as a sword.

We walked under a blanket of stars
The night was deep, our only audience were cars.
You made me laugh, that was actually a feat.
I don't remember my last
and then I edged off my seat.

Maybe there was a reason why God chose that night.
So that we were away from eyes filled with prejudiced might.
The night is ours, the day is theirs.
We only have each other, that was only the first.

You held my face, my cheeks grew red.
Suddenly, the cold wind was dead.
My face grew hot, was it your fault?
I can't help but melt. "Stay there," I thought.

You pinched my sides, I was shocked and surprised.
It left a strange feeling, I felt I won a prize.
How I begged you would repeat, I was in endless agony
My heart was screaming hymns or cacophony

The freedom we felt in the deep of the park
Our only music was from the night bugs,
oh and some sparks!
I hoped that night was forever, hope may I?
But the sun began to rise, I let out a sigh.

Saturday, December 22, 2012

Freedom To Love

Almost cried to tears because of this video.

My favorite line is: "If only gay people could stop feeling guilty or being different."

Must-watch vid. Made me want to visit Singapore in the near future. :')

Wednesday, December 19, 2012


"Patience is a virtue, FiftyShades. Just reminding you that."

I just realized how much I can be an intellectual snob. Though, I do socialize with all people, don't get mistaken. But I do hate when someone is trying to compete with me and he's not even much of a competition.  

Ayoko rin namang patulan yung pakikipagcompete niya pero ang kulit kasi kada may gagawin tapos tatanungin niya kung ano ginagawa ko or progress ko. Feeling ko tuloy kailangan ko mag-report sa kanya everyday.

Saturday, December 15, 2012

God Loves Bakla ni Raymond Alikpala

This is the book I'm currently reading. It caught my eye last Sunday when I was in the mall and read it's summary at the back. The book chronicles the life of a gay man growing up and finding God. It sparked my curiosity as I was an Atheist before and I want to find out how could a gay man be comfortable with a God who is supposed to condemn homosexuality. Anyway, I'll be writing a review after I finished reading this book. Can't wait. :)

Btw, sorry for the last review I wrote. Still learning. :)

Tuesday, December 4, 2012

Pasilip: Gay Bullying

Gay bullying would be bullying towards lesbian, gay, bisexual, or transgender (LGBT) youth and those perceived as LGBT [Wikipedia].

Gay and lesbian youth are two to three times more likely to commit suicide than other youths, and 30 percent of all completed youth suicides are related to the issue of sexual identity according to the [Report to the Secretary's Task Force on Youth Suicide, Wikipedia]

Napagdesisyunan ko na gumawa ng isang blog post patungkol sa isang bagay na dapat nating talakayin: Gay bullying and suicide. ABANGAN.

Monday, December 3, 2012

Movie Review: Rise of the Guardians

I admit, even at my age (21) I'm still a big sucker for children's movies especially when they have awesome powers and abilities. Lol. I guess it's just me being a geek. Anyways, I would just like to share my review on: The Rise of the Guardians. I watched this yesterday as I waited for my family to finish their Christmas shopping (emphasis on the 'their' since I was not doing any shopping myself as I haven't received my paycheck yet). By the way, SPOILERS MAY BE AHEAD.


The story of this film is quite engaging as they have re-imagined popular make-believe characters and made awesome backstories for each and one of them and each backstory is engulfed with one another and makes one massive story to follow. Basically, it's like, to quote a review I have read on Wikipedia, the Avengers for kids.  They each get awesome abilities in conjunction with what they are supposed to do. Each character also represents a value a kid has to believe into in order for them to be able to see the character the value represents.  I'm not going to divulge any information. You have to see it for yourself.  Plot-wise, it's a two-thumbs up performance, but as for pacing, it's another matter. I was really disappointed with the pacing and I can't help but compare it with Marvel's The Avengers as they have similarities they share. For Avengers, they had the chance to explore the backstory of each character with the previous films they have released that focuses on the character's individual backstory. This was something The Rise for the Guardians didn't have. They have this one whole story made up of substories and they tried to tell it in one film that ran for like 2 hours only. I felt like I was jumping from one story to another and I did a lot of assumptions based on small plot drops just for me to enjoy the whole film. That's the only thing that the film had room for improvements story-wise.


Don't watch it in 3d. I didn't revel in the whole experience in 3d as I didn't feel any difference between the 2d and the 3d. There were no jaw-dropping-pops-out-from-the-screen animation. I thought there would be a lot since there was a lot of action in this film but I guess they considered the effects of such animation to young audiences (Google Porygon episode of Pokemon).
Despite of the fast pacing of the movie, the movie was able to flesh out its characters. You will surely remember your favorite character and how he or she came to be. The characters would have been carved out better if they were able to pace the movie intelligently. 

One will learn a lot from this film. I guess the lesson that really resonated was this:
"You will never know who you are unless you look back to who you were."


The movie is a must-see. If you could interpret the plot drops, the pacing may not be that bad. It is highly encouraged for kids to see it and they will be surely entertained. Adults as well. There is enough action to keep the adults off the edge of their seat. It may not be the best but it surely placed somewhere above all films this 2012. :)

Friday, November 30, 2012

Fight a good fight

Yes, we are all entitled to fight this fight! Let's all fight HIV/AIDS! I've recently sent in my application to "Love Yourself". Just click on the link to find out what it's all about!

I'm just waiting for the results of my application. I hope I get a reply soon.


Okay, I was reading some of my works a few months ago when I came across with this one poem. I made this poem when I ultimately felt I was in all-time low. Back when I learned that the people I'm with were mocking me because of my sexual orientation. Almost all of my new acquaintances in Makati has something "funny" to say about me because I was gay. They went on and believed according to stereotypes. Anyway, I've moved on so I guess there's no need to tell you any further. I want to share the poem by the way:

By: FiftyShadesOfQueer

Lord, why did you make me this way?
Why did you allow me to be gay?
What did I do in the first place to deserve this?
Most of them are treating me worse than piss.

Lord, I'm tired of everyone treating me like a disease.
Sometimes I envy those who are deceased.
I feel like I want to dig my own grave.
I'm tired, I'm a slut, I'm also not brave.

Lord, I feel like I'm all alone.
There's no one to share my despair,
I have my own throne.
I tried to change, believe me, I want to.
But they keep on telling me, I'm worse than poo.

Lord, this is my cry for help.
Do you listen or are you deaf?
Lord, please, I'm afraid can't you hear in my tone?
Yesterday, today, forever alone.

No one to share with, my feelings, my confusions.
I tried to hide it with smiles and intrusions.
They laughed at me, made fun of me, mocked me.
I have feelings you know, hear my plea.

Lord, if you didn't make gays, why am I here?
Lord, does this mean the devil made me, oh dear?
Lord, I'm not your son? Am I the devil's son?
Lord, these feelings are too heavy, they're weighing a ton.

Lord, I have in my hand is a knife, a friend.
It would be the bridge to you, this is the end.
I want answers, this would be my happy ending too.
This is my way, I'm coming back to you.


Sa mundo ng mga bakla, talo ka kapag effem ka. Kapag nasa PlanetRomeo ka, laging nasa headline: "No Chubs, No Effems." Kaya ang isang bakla ay talo na sa mundo ng mga straight dahil sa diskriminasyon, panglalait, at panghaharass, at maaring talo rin sa mundo ng mga bading. Minsan, napapaisip ako kung pano tayo makakapag-kapitbisig kung tayo nga ay di matanggap ang isa't-isa. I mean, yes, preference rin yun pero yung tipong makaka-receive ka ng mura na reply kapag kinomplement mo yung looks niya sa PR tapos mababasa niya sa profile mo na effem ka. Okay, you're welcome na lang.

Random Rantings. First blog post. Kdot.