Honestly, I never liked those two terms. Those words make me feel that being gay is a choice and that I could have chosen otherwise.
Why? Sexual Orientation. Orientation. Was I oriented to fall in love with other guys? Did an external factor affected how I feel, that given the chance that this factor is absent, everything could have been different? I'm reviewing my history and could it be true? But I'm only one of the many gay people in this world and one couldn't speak for the group.
Sexual Preference. Preference. Choice. Did I choose to be gay? Did I choose to fall in love with other guys? Believe me, if I had a choice, I would have chosen to be straight so that the complications of being gay in a straight world would be unburdened. It's difficult to be gay. I'm tired of the taunts, the back bites, and those who are judgmental. I could have lessened these to a certain degree if I were straight, I believe. I'm tired of hearing and reading comments that I am psychologically abnormal.
All I know is you don't control who you fall in love with. For straight people, is there a moment in your life that you chose to fall in love with a girl? Could you choose to fall in love with a guy? That's the same for us gays. We didn't choose to fall in love with a guy and certainly we don't control who we fall in love with. Blast the hypothalamus. The hypothalamus is the only thing to blame for releasing the hormones that makes us feel "love".
Gender studies is a very complicated field. Sociology as well. With all the intricacies of the decisions affected by the external factors and how these decisions affect the society as well as the individual... Haiy, buhay. Too many questions I have in mind. All I could hope for is some answers.