Recent events have left me shaken. The earthquake in Bohol scared me to the point I wake up in the middle of the night afraid and full of sweat. I'm not sure if this is a product of mass hysteria the media has unknowingly induced or if this stemmed from the fact that I'm afraid of things I can't control.
No. I'm not a control freak. I don't revel in power nor control.
It's just that, I'm scared when I face a predicament in which I reach a dead end because I'm out of controllable variables to change the outcome of an event. And natural disasters are ultimate dead-ends for me.
What if it hits Manila? Or Bicol? What about partner? My family? Our family?
I texted partner and told him how I felt about the earthquake.
"Di na natin yan makokontrol, bunso. Wala natayong magagawa dyan. Makakapagdasal lang tayo, bunso."
Simple words. But I felt better.
So, to my fellow Cebuanos. Let's stay strong. Let's get up. Our land may be shakeable but not us.